Well..

So, getting tired of a few things. Journaling EVERY STINKIN DAY is one of them. This to me could totally go. Or try to do a once a week type thing. Trying to fit time in to workout when I'm working my butt off moving furniture and cleaning and stuff is hard. Hey, that should count as a work out! My heart was going and I was sweating!

THE PLAN

So, this contest.... I'm not really enthused about the way they did the "awards", but whatever... I can still try to win the most weight lost category and that is going to be my main goal. So, the plan is:

• Base my meals around vegetables/fruits. Note I put vegetables first!
• Do more than just a walk for my exercise. Push myself!
• I think doing just those things will really help me win!

My goal is be at 182 in 3 weeks! I know I can do it!

I am so thankful for Nathan and how hard he works to provide for our family so that I don't have to go work. It is so nice that I get to stay at home and raise our children and take care of our home. I am thankful for the extra work that he does at home too. It is making a big difference with me asking him for help instead of just expecting it. He's right, he does do it when I ask! :) I love him so much!

Penny is not feeling good today and her crying all the time and not knowing what it is is really hard on me. I just wish I knew what was wrong with her. I feel lazy today, like I don't want to do anything! But I've got another load of dishes to do, laundry to do, dinner to make by 5, I still need to workout (maybe I should go swimming tonight, I think I would really enjoy that). Anyway, I'm getting sick of journaling everyday!

Ugh. I just figured out that I am no longer in the running for the $! I'm pretty ticked off about eating those stupid oreos now! Well, I was kind of thinking what is the point in doing this now, but there is a point! It is to make myself better! And there are still some prizes to be won. I just need to get as many superstar weeks as I can and try to lose the most weight! I can do it!

It's been two weeks for this competition and I've lost 4 pounds. Yey! But, I really want to lose at least two more this week, so I am going to count my calories this week (not fun, but you got to do what you got to do to get the results you wanna get!)

Gave a talk today

So, today was our day to give talks in church. I am so glad that is over! Talk about a huge stress lifted off my shoulders! I was thankful for the opportunity to learn how important it is to teach our children about Jesus and the gospel and principles at any opportunity that I can have. That I need to be their friend now, so they will want me to be in their lives later on in life. Especially Ariana, I worry about her since she is kind of distant from me and just wants to be on the computer or watch a movie or play with her friends. I need to work on being with her and doing this that she likes to do too.

I feel SO Bloated and sick!

Oh my goodness! How did I live like this so often! My stomach feels like it's going to explode! It hurts so bad! I was overcome today by tempations of Oreo cookies. I gave in since I wasn't getting my superstar week since dinner was late last night. Sucks, cause I don't think I would of given in had I still had a superstar week, but since I was given a freebie, I used it.

PLEASE AMBER LEARN THIS LESSON! Find something else to satisfy your sweet tooth. Something sweetened with stevia or xylitol or fruit juice. DO NOT give in and buy the kids junk food anymore! They need to learn how to eat healthy too.

Redeeming One's self

So, Nathan came home last night and asked if I needed any help! (What the?!) I was Floored! It was nice, he put the kids to bed and got them ready for bed, not like I would do it, but in the end it was done and I had a chance to clean up the middle (main floor) of the house. It was awesome waking up to a clean kitchen and dining and office area!

I am thankful to not be having strong sugar cravings. They are there a little bit (on a scale of 1-10, 10 being REALLY strong desire, I would say it's probably a 3). I can see though how easy it is to be critical of those that do have them badly, when u are not experiecing them yourself and how easy is to be like, "Just go without it!" I still remember what it was like to be in that constant state of desire for cookies, or brownies. It was real, but I am so glad and so thankful to not be there right now! i believe it is making it possible to lose weight finally! I don't know what made it easier this time, Hypnotherapy (self, which I haven't done that much, or taking white flour out of my diet. In which I find that I am not eating as many carbs.... Well no. I had stone wheat crackers (ak mak) with cheese- they were good. And I eat sandwiches almost everyday.

Television: Good or BAD?

I am thankful for television, although I know it has side effects and isn't the best thing to have your child doing all day, but.... I don't know if I would ever hear myself think if I didn't have the kids watching t.v. in another room. I definitely know that it needs to be cut back (well with Ariana it definitely does, Enoch doesn't watch a whole lot unless he is with Ariana and Penny is not really interested yet, thank goodness!) Me on the other hand, I can't seem to find the time to sit and watch anything! Let alone sit and type in my journal, which is always put last on my list. I was telling Nathan today that I get so frusterated with him because I feel like I work really hard and he doesn't. He always gets so offended when I say that, but it's true! He says he does work hard, and yes he does at work. But then when he is home he doesn't. Why is it that some men think that that is all they have to do is "work" to make money and then when they are not "working" they can sit around and watch t.v. or surf the web and their wife is just going to take care of everything else ALL FREAKIN DAY and be HAPPY and HORNY? "Here sweety let me take care of you and the kids and the house and all the meals and all the laundry and sweep and mop and pick up all the toys off the floor and the clothes and do the dishes and put dinner away and iron YOUR clothes and wash YOUR clothes and do the grocery shopping and clothes shopping (that part I don't mind) while you come home and sit on your butt and be lazy! Don't flippin tell me that just because you work and make money that that excuses you from doing household chores! The kids have more chores than you! (and they have one) I get up in the morning and it's go go go until I am asleep! And I am the last one (normally) to go to sleep! UGH, Penny woke up....

Today I plan on doing laundry (I have a ton cause for some reason Ariana keeps having accidents! So weird) And finally getting everybody's clothes in order (including all the clothes in the garage). I only have about 3-4 hours to complete this task, as I have to go get Ariana and take her to ballet today too. I'll have to video her and post it, it is so cute!

I did write this entry down yesterday, so I still get points, I just didn't enter it in the computer. So here is my journal entry for Sept. 19:

Subbed in Enoch's class today at church. Didn't do much today. But I did read Enoch the introduction to the book of mormon. He said to me, "I love my book of mormon! Mom, what is the book of mormon?" So, I read the intro to him. So cute!

Well, yesterday got better. Nathan came home and gave me $100 and told me to go get some clothes and not to come home until I had some. Well, I tried on a ton of clothes, but didn't like almost all of them. I came home with an overshirt, which I love! A sweater and a belt, both of which I took back today. So I spent $15. Nice. Well, guess I'll get to go shopping on Monday. Today I returned shoes I bought for Ariana. She is SO DANG picky! Ran to a what seemed like a ton of stores today to return stuff. Didn't do any shopping. Debating on going to the store tonight. I am actually feeling pretty tired and could easily go to sleep. Last night I was so hyper (I think from the iron) I couldn't go to sleep. I only took half of the iron today that I did yesterday (10 ml) so I could go to sleep tonight. But it is so nice to have a ton of energy again! To not feel drained and in a bad mood all day is really nice! I even fixed myself up today and took a shower (and I want sex more often, which is really weird! But Nathan likes it!) I love it! I am doing really good on this competition. Hopefully I can keep it up!

Ugh... That is how I feel about today. Bad mood. Just feel so fat and frumpy and ugly. I have no nice clothes, my teeth are going bad and yellow... and I feel like we are too broke to take care of myself. That is why I am in such a bad mood!

busy day

Long Busy day. Applied for our passports today. Amazingly it was way more simple than I had thought it would be!

Worked out, only for like 30 minutes though. Jogged a mile and 1/4 and rode bike for a mile.

Kids are so tired from getting up early.. I need to go put them to bed.

Iron is helping

I'll I have to say today is that the iron is definately helping. I have enough energy to workout and take care of everything else without feeling like I am going to collapse with exhaustion. I still feel a little tired, but that could be from the ultimate interupptions from last night. Enoch kept complaining of a tummy ache, then he kept talking in his sleep, and of course Penny kept waking up and Ariana wet her bed. So much for a good nights rest! Got about 7-8 hours of interuppeted, but at least I got some!

Tired AGAIN

I don't understand why I am so sleepy! I got PLENTY of sleep, 10 hours! I am eating, so it's not low blood sugar. I bought some iron today, hopefully that is all it is and I will get my energy back. I took Ariana and Penny to the Portland Children's Museum today. It was fun for all of us for about the first 20 minutes. After that, I was bored out of my mind! But Ariana had fun, and I'm sure Penny did too. She's having her second nap right now. Hopefully she'll go back to sleep tonight. Nathan and Enoch are coming home from WA late tonight, so I won't be going to bed until late anyway.

It's the first day of our Healthy Habits competition. I'm doing great competition wise, but I am exhausted right now and want a nap! I slept horrible last night cause Nathan is gone in WA with Enoch right now for work and I was just scared. So, I kept waking up... Bad dreams, noises, Penny, bathroom break, Ariana woke me up too from crying in her sleep. ( Course she doesn't remember it.) and of course being stuffed up doesn't help.

I ran (jogged) 3 miles today! With a couple of walking breaks, but not long ones. Maybe 1 minute or so about 3 or 4 times. My average mile was 16 minutes 45 seconds. And then after that I went and did weights for my upper body.

Man I am so tired! Ariana had her first dance lessons today too (ballet). Penny was really difficult! She kept slapping me in the face too! UGH!